I Am In a Transitory State at the Moment
Breaking a leg can be the catalyst that adjusts your mental clarity as well as your physical.
I am finding that accepting forgiveness as a lifestyle and allowing the Holy Spirit to be your judge places you in an interesting place.
I choose to believe what Spirit says about my safety and the intentions of others rather than what they say OR what I would like it to be.
That is a bit of an aha moment that I am experiencing right now.
I have distress if I try to fit in or play a game where they think I am just a pawn and do not know what’s going on. (Which is how the ego weaves its illusion of “life”.)
I have to admit I do not necessarily LIKE this awareness that I have but I am beginning to see that it is something that I cannot ignore.
Bringing the situation or my feelings to someone’s attention just gives them an opportunity to deny that what the Spirit has told me is real.
My trust is in God and His Witness via the Holy Spirit above all else.
I am not sure if telling them is the honorable thing to do or do I just “ghost” them? That does not seem decent somehow.
I will await further instruction from the Holy Spirit.
At this point, I do know that I need to at least be honest with myself.
I sense that I need to be honest with them as well and let people know when I do not feel safe in their presence.
And maybe I need to be better about expressing gratitude to those with whom I do feel safe as well.
It will be interesting to see what life looks like even a few months from now.